Life is not all unicorns and rainbows.

Colorful clouds on the dramatic sunset skyLife is tough, gritty, and sometimes really lonely. Our emotions are being dumbed down, so much so that we’re even using a singular emoji to communicate how we’re feeling. Reading a lot of inspirational blogs used to give me momentary feelings of hope, I’d be all geared up for my day channeling a zen master and then one person would trigger me and I’d be frustrated out of my mind, clearly some more work was needed. It didn’t matter how many times I looked in the mirror and told myself I loved the person staring back (yes, I did that, a lot) and repeated daily affirmations, sometimes life’s daily triggers would smack me right in the face and stir up my soul. But, I started to realise, being smacked in the face and feeling emotions rock my soul is actually what life is about. Let’s face it, if we didn’t have these feelings and triggers we’d be dead or sedated with life’s distractions of alcohol or drugs flowing through every ounce of our body relentlessly. So now I try to have no expectation of what each day will bring, if it’s a bad day I’ll let myself have a bad day, if it’s a good day, I’ll let myself have a good day. We are so busy trying to label everything that we don’t let ourselves simply feel how we need to feel. The hard bit isn’t reading the books, listening to the podcasts or being inspired by the gurus, the hard bit is sitting with you own feelings each and every day. This is when your darkest fears rush through your veins, you enter a war with your mind that will tell you to give up. The mind doesn’t want you to face your fears, to get to know the real you, to laugh at the limitations created by your story. Why? Because all that bullshit is ego and if you lose your ego, well, the mind has lost. We constantly distract ourselves with social media, food, sex, TV, purchasing things we don’t really need. Does it ever really bring lasting satisfaction? Probably not for you, because you can hear that have that little voice inside, the one that’s telling you to tune in and truely face yourself. Is it easy? No way. It’s really hard and I battle with myself every single day to sit in silence, even if it’s only for ten minutes. Trust me I’m not sat in an impossible yoga position, I don’t have a fancy alter, the only reason I sit up is because otherwise I’d fall asleep! The fact is though, I never feel bad after it. I promise it will be the same for you. What are you waiting for?

 

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